This is all I could think about last night.

...an island somewhere in the Indian Ocean.

unemployment

i wanna be making music everyday. i want a bass. i want pedals. i could be making science + skeleton noises, but that's not really doing it for me right now. i'm gonna go longboarding or maybe watch some more Arrested Development.

Flying Saucer.

Happy Birthday Dad!!!

Holy Crap.

I love my mom this much.

From here on out

All my "poems" (or whatever you wanna call them can be found at my new blog called "words."

All the old ones are also there. I've felt the need to separate my thoughts from my poems for some time now. I finally did it. Also, yes.

www.w3rds.blogspot.com

you should see the clouds over the bay right now

the only sunburn that ever matters

count it on two hands
breathe in hollow air
hold it in the past the future
breathe out the perfect words
its all blood and tissue
but its real and it feels like tomorrow
i walked into the ocean
the sun is here
the air is swimming
i will always have skin
its always on my skin
ive counted to ten now
and nothing has changed
everything will always stay the same
as long as the sun is here and i have skin

sixteen through twenty-five

is it possible this is an ocean

i can make the forest sing
this silence
to the top of the mountain
to the top of the tree
believe in both sides
of the sun
heat and light
accept the water over your body
forever always awake
and then we will sleep

best compliment ever

"I like your songs because they're orchestras you always give them an epic organic building layering feel. if they're noise they're noise done right." - Hunter

this made me feel good. this is what he's talking about. it's a song called "conquest." we "wrote" it together.

http://www.last.fm/music/Science%2B%252B%2BSkeleton/_/Conquest

copy + paste doods, i'm to lazy to make the link work.

hey man, wanna get some food?

I went to a show last nite. (Defiance, Ohio) great band, great show. it reminded me why i like punk rock (or at least the punk rock attitude) punk rock is about community and family and love and coming together. it's pretty awesome when a hundred or so kids are all singing along in unison. it's commonly misconceived (oe so i believe) that punk rock is all about being an individual and fighting against some sort of system (the man) i call bullcrap. it's about being okay with yourself and being cool with people who are different than you. last nite i was thousands of miles from home and all my friends but i still managed to have some awesome conversations with some great people. it was kinda awesome.

today i went to the beach and got some awesome beach stuffs. pieces of drift wood and some incredibly smooth stones. they're way cool and i like to think they've been around a lot longer than i have. floating around in the ocean, getting pushed around by waves. it made me feel kinda small in a good way.

this weekend was great. it made me think about some things. it made me a little more hopeful.

blech

i haven't been writing...words or music. i don't like it. it's confusing. when i am writing things just happen whether i want them to or not. when i really want them to happen, i can't write anything. blech. picture unrelated.

this is not a poem but it could be one day if it tries real hard.

i want it to have meaning
but sometimes im left handed
believe
i cant do things alone
but i can do them with help and i have som uch help
even though i dont write words on paper
i out them in the air
or under water
is an isalnd
mauybe i will sleep soon
or maybe i will see you
im breathing the right way
im coming along quiet nicely

so i wrote those words in a few seconds. i left the spelling errors and what not b/c that is what my fingers did. i read it and it kinda tickled. i don't know if tickled is the right word, but it's the first word that comes to mind.

an incomplete sentence

certainly

if i could
ever really
understand this
then maybe

yep

i think i knew it couldn't be so easy.

today

So today at church Bishop Miller gave a stellar talk. He was kinda all over the place, but one thing he spoke about really stuck out to me. Especially with all the things in my life that have recently come to light.

1. Never forget you are a child of God and He loves you. (Romans 8:16-18,28,35,38-39)
2. God knows what's happening in your life. (Moses 7:24-41)
3. The Atonement helps in all aspects of your life. (Alma 7:11-13)
4. One day this will all make sense to you. (Doc. + Cov. 101:32-38)

Pretty right on.

Oakland

I spent the afternoon in the temple today. As always, it was awesome. A member of the temple presidency spoke to us. He mentioned 3 things that happen in the temple. 1) We receive instruction. 2) We make covenants. 3) We receive revelation. He said that most of the time when we receive answers to our prayers the answer is "I LOVE YOU. I CARE ABOUT YOU. YOU CAN DO THIS. I AM WITH YOU." I think that's pretty true. Because most of the time that's all we need to keep going. Most things in life aren't that bad. We make them bigger and worse than they really are. I feel like that answer helps us focus on the eternal perspective. It's so simple, but it does so much.